second week of april

ah dear a~look like ngam ngam bangun....hahaha~

this sunday is sally and edwin marriage 4th year anniversary, they ask dear and me go eat ah yat bao yu at pj which is so near my college ooo...

is a very happy night with my dear cheewoon..hoho...i saw he give me the yu chi and he don eat that...i am soso happy~hehe...even i am not really like tat yu chi la...i more hope he give me bao yu loh~~~wakakakakak.....

when i see he treat me so well then i become so touch loh~even ah kit also didnt treat sally like this~T_T~but dono after 8years will he still treat me like this leh??yer....i dont dare to think about this, because people always change follow the time er....

this dinner spent around 105 per person. yoyo...dear dompet bleed liao~~hehe...very thanks my dear treat me so nice~and thx sally also, if not she want eat then i will not able to ask for this~hehehehe.....this is my first time leh~dear, i give u my first time liao....wakakaka^O^

i love him

i love him so much~dont know why~
especially i listen to the RIVER FLOWS IN YOU...
i will felt that i really love him so much...
every time i felt i am lost from the way,
then i will listen back to river flows in you,
after that i would find back the feel when we just start this relationship...
is kinda sweet and romance~
make me miss him more and more...
even now he show his bad things,
but i still remember how good he treat me last time...
i still remember the day i fall in love with him,
how i miss him everyday and night...
what the feeling when he told me he miss me for first time...
the feeling when we having first date...
yup~i still remember all the process that we have...
i still remember all the feel from starting until now...
thats why, i love him so much~love chee woon...❤❤

first week of april

fine, i dono what happen now...i was so tired now...i felt so suffer now...why cant only happy in love?why should had some problem to face in love?

is it my fault?i always find ur bad things?only see ur bad ways? ya lo...why cant i just see ur good things?if i can be stupid then how good is it??so i will not feeling hurt when u rude on me...so i will not sad when u ignore my feeling...so i can be blind when u start change in this relationship...

why u want to know what i am thinking??then, why u did not let me know what u thinking??i just a simple girl...i just want simple thing in my life...why so hard??i just want u care for me, care for my feeling, care for my safe, care for my thinking...

then, what u want from me?feeling? safety? or thinking??i dono how to communicate with u now...i just want to go back to last time when we just start our relationship...that time u care me so much love me so much and teach me so much...

u care about me when u sent me home if i drive home alone, u say u feel happy when talk to me, u will not put ur bad mood on me because u care my feeling, u dont want to make me unhappy, u said u will try to longer the sweet period as long as u can, u say love me care me protect me...

is it i am too stupid? i believe what u telling me...i thought i am the most happy and lucky woman in the world...or am i too sensitive? maybe all the problem will be nothing if i could close my eyes and keep telling myself u love me u love me u love me, then enough??

i thought nothing can stop us from loving each others, but now seem there was some problems that not easy to settle in this way...why huh?? why u become different with last time huh?? why cant the relationship keep like last time huh?? why i easy get hurt huh?

i dont want we become like shinya and jimmy...dear~can you treat me good abit like last time?? i want back my dear that love me care me so much... that dear make me so proud of him, who make me become the most xing fu girl...

dear~u know i love u so much, right? u know i dont wish to leave u, right? u know i dont like to cry, right? but u dont know how to make me happy back, right? u feel u already care me and love me but why i still like this, right??

i am so worry about our love...how huh?? just leave me alone first...i need to be calm and think...