first week of april

fine, i dono what happen now...i was so tired now...i felt so suffer now...why cant only happy in love?why should had some problem to face in love?

is it my fault?i always find ur bad things?only see ur bad ways? ya lo...why cant i just see ur good things?if i can be stupid then how good is it??so i will not feeling hurt when u rude on me...so i will not sad when u ignore my feeling...so i can be blind when u start change in this relationship...

why u want to know what i am thinking??then, why u did not let me know what u thinking??i just a simple girl...i just want simple thing in my life...why so hard??i just want u care for me, care for my feeling, care for my safe, care for my thinking...

then, what u want from me?feeling? safety? or thinking??i dono how to communicate with u now...i just want to go back to last time when we just start our relationship...that time u care me so much love me so much and teach me so much...

u care about me when u sent me home if i drive home alone, u say u feel happy when talk to me, u will not put ur bad mood on me because u care my feeling, u dont want to make me unhappy, u said u will try to longer the sweet period as long as u can, u say love me care me protect me...

is it i am too stupid? i believe what u telling me...i thought i am the most happy and lucky woman in the world...or am i too sensitive? maybe all the problem will be nothing if i could close my eyes and keep telling myself u love me u love me u love me, then enough??

i thought nothing can stop us from loving each others, but now seem there was some problems that not easy to settle in this way...why huh?? why u become different with last time huh?? why cant the relationship keep like last time huh?? why i easy get hurt huh?

i dont want we become like shinya and jimmy...dear~can you treat me good abit like last time?? i want back my dear that love me care me so much... that dear make me so proud of him, who make me become the most xing fu girl...

dear~u know i love u so much, right? u know i dont wish to leave u, right? u know i dont like to cry, right? but u dont know how to make me happy back, right? u feel u already care me and love me but why i still like this, right??

i am so worry about our love...how huh?? just leave me alone first...i need to be calm and think...