late

why leh?
why late?
why he always late call me?
why again?
why he start no inform me after back home again?
this is the stability that he want?
why everything looks going to change?
sometime good and sometime bad...
is it i need to wait again?
guys always like to re-do the false that had done before...
why they dont ever know girls will worry??
dont he know i am waiting for him?
or else he want me dont wait anymore?
okie~~
i can find another guy to accompany me....
if he want me to do so~
i swear i can do it!!!

days by days~

is near to the opening of school...
im gonna to become busy later~
so i just enjoy my lovely holiday now with my beloved..
but i know this had create some unhappy to my family,
especially my parent~
they always complain me doesn't accompany them..
its okie~
when it is starting skul,
i will stay at home all the time~
but for them,
it is still not accompany them.
because im still chilling in room,
facing my laptop and works...
so?
whatever...
i will having the life that i want~
dont try to mess up my life~
i want to stick with my dear when im free~
i will let this relationship go longer and longer~
thanks my dear for understand me~
but please take care for yourself~
its also a help that you can do for me...^^

bagan lalang again~❤

ya~~we go bagan lalang again yo~~this time we go with more people..ah kit, sally, jacky, ah loon and his wife~~2car go...very happy~~this day is ah loon birthday actually~but my dear looks happy than him...^^

this is i take for my dear during the sunset on the lover bridge~~he look cool leh~~hahaha...he like it so much as well as me...he eat the crabs that he most like~~sure he are happy this day...
i know, no matter now or after marry, he will always love me...hehe~this is the picture he capture most beautiful for me....XD

hurt

dear's hand was get hurt~~~my heart feel hurt too...
is some kind of burn....
so terrible~
his leg was get hurt also...
is some kind of punch...
it is bengkak~~
and recently he is keep stomachache~~~
dont know what happen with him...
always here pain there pain...
i tell him before...
now is july of chinese...
kind of ghost month~
must be careful when do anything....
then when he get hurt i blame him...
because i had mention him for his safety...
but then he blame me back...
saying me still blame him when he is hurt...
if not what can i do?
i am not beside of him....
i cant put medicine for him...
and he never put it himself...
i also feel sad what~
haiz....（>.<）

my new jacket~~❤

hehe~my dear bought me new jacket~actually he want to buy the green color for himself but since got discount for 2nd piece so, he bought for me~i choose a red color 1....like it much~^^that day we go for movie, he dint take jacket along, in the cinema is damn cold~

this time we were reach earlier~because i go and buy friend gift~so we had abit free time to shopping~i saw he is looking up for a jacket on the display doll~is PDI... i knew he like it, i said i will buy for him but finally he bought back for me~~

how glad am i~~woohoo~~~muckz~love u my dear~i like it so much^^

recently

this few days i had both feeling in my heart~happy and sad...when i see my dear of cause is happy, but then when i leave him i will suddenly sad feel~~last sat i had a show at ampang, i really hope that he can come support me, but i know he is busy, he cant make it...so i dont ask for it~that day i make up so beautiful, i hope he can see it, thats why i call him immediately right after i reach pitstop because i want to meet him as soon as possible~~but when i call him he said he havnt bath, it is 11 something already,so late still dont want bath~he dono i will find him after show meh? why he always like this?haiz~~anyway, when i see him i cant show my angry, i only can show my happy face to him~because i know he will unhappy when saw my angry face~he will say i dont think for him......

before that, the friday, actually i hope that i can go his house to stay overnight, after practice dance i call him but he dint answer my call, so i just go back my house~after i finish bath only i saw he call me~~he say he care for me and he driving to pitstop to find me~i want meet him, but he seems lazy or any else reason made me feel that he wont willing to come my house and fetch me home on another morning...i think he would like me drive to his house myself then i can drive back myself so he need not wake up so early to fetch me back~or else i better stay at my own home alone~~so i just prefer to stay at home~i rather hurt myself than putting him on a bad mood~~once i keep quiet and upset on my own~~

yet today is tuesday~wat a boring day for me~~i already stay at home for 2days...mummy was not at kl now~i though i can hang out with my dear on this week~but the truth is he had his own stuff to do~he need to accompany ah kit and give him some help~even i really hope he can accompany me, but that is his bro,so what can i said? i really dont know i need to keep my bad feeling in my heart until when~i try to be a good girlfren but then i made myself suffer~~i try to stand in his point of view to thinking for him, but then who thinking for me?if i dont speak out then who will know im really feeling unwell??but if i speak out then what would happen?did he will try to thinking for me?or blame me?but 1thing i know well is, he sure will become unhappy and moody~~

but i really feel lonely when i am alone~~~when he can understand my feeling?

time square❤

yesterday my dear bring me go time square~he bought me a t-shirt~is cheap, but cute^^ i like it~dis is the 2nd shirt he bought me~~last time he got bought me a dress~~he bring me to there is for terminate the u mobile line~he is so funny~keep saying tired made me also feel tired ady~

we go eat 石好at time square~~argh~damn terrible~not nice~but i like the jay chao song at there~hehe^^ really thanks my dear~give all his time to me on every sunday which he can off day~erm... maybe he also need thanks me because every sunday i also accompany him?hehe

i so happy because he always remember to wear the rings, but me always forgot~XP...and i also like the way he try to protect me from strangers~~when in lowyat, so many guys pass beside me, and he use hand to prevent those strangers touch me~~hehe^^

yer~~my dear very cute de....muakz~love him❤