dear's mother bday~

This is the 1st time he formally introduce me to his family members...the first time i saw his grandma, uncles and aunties~they are nice, quite friendly~it is a family gathering for his mother birthday purpose...

the stupid guy are not practice enough for proper manners...need me to tell him to introduce for his family members then only he will guide me to meet them~~why should i be so motivated? i wonder is it he dont really want to introduce me to his family also~~

sometime, he look so clever, intelligent, like know many things and experiences that i dont have...but sometimes, he is just an idiot....>.<~~i wonder he really dono or dont want to know...anyway, he still work as a pass grade bf~~

i think next time i also be a pass grade gf then enough~~hehe~~~but i am still happy to become a pre-member of his family right now~i am practice hard to join into this family...could u see it?? i am work so hard for u, and for our future~~i know, same as u~~hopefully we will had wonderful ending~~I LOVE YOU~CheeWoon♥

Happy or not happy??

this week i almost everyday stay at chee woon house...
i dont know i am happy or not happy...
i hope to stay with him...
i wish i can have happy life with him...
but the more i stick with him, i find so many problems between us..

i know i have do too much for him...
it is not a good thing...
who will appreciate it?
i try to be a good girl 、a good girl friend for him...
but i finally know guys does not care and cherish for good girl...
they cant maintain the same like the beginning of the relationship...
i also hope i can change follow the time....

now i choose to be a bad girl rather become a nice lady....
i believe what he tell me,
"how others treat you depends on how you treat others"
so i treat him good and nice~
i think i will get the same which i give him...
keep distance with the boys, help him clean his things, inform him wherever i go...
finally......what i get is.....

i just look like a aunty who had no market at all~
not attractive~ not pretty~
somemore people dont want to hug me also....
everythings go a different way now~
i think i am wrong for doing this....
no people will appreciate~
just make myself cheaper and cheaper~
always giving help become my responsibility now....
my independent make nobody care now~

ok....
i am tired again and again~
that day when i see you cry i believe that i am so important in your heart...
but your action tell me what is my position is actually in your heart...
you never ask my safety when i tell you i am alone...
you never tell me before you hang out with friends...
even meet your ex-fiancee...you also only will tell after i ask...
if i dont ask? i cant imagine how many things you will not tell me if i don ask...
nice one!!!!good job~~~

this is what i suppose to get from you?
this is not how i treat you~but why you treat me like this?
i feel i am crazy when i tell myself i want to marry you...
i can see all the problems after marry...
he is not the one i hope to marry with now...
i wish to marry with the one that before the 500days....
oh my god~
oh i see~
i know what should i do now~~~~~~~

after 510 days we being together~
i realize that i should change now~
i promise myself~~
this is what he teach me...
"how people treat you, you treat the same way to them"