♥happy days♥

i am very busy for the days for preparing exam~thx my dear for support me during i exam~~hehe...everyday busy for assignment...no much time to accompany him, but he still call me every night~no people can understand why we can talk all the nights after we being so long time together...this is our secret!!!haha~~~

until Christmas, i am free because is study week for exam...i remember the Christmas eve we go eat shabu-shabu at serdang here. it is quite expensive but we are happy because we being together. we ate so much~~~~until i cant move already~~haahaxxxx!!!! we eat abalone, is delicious~~

the Christmas day we go shopping at Jusco, and i wearing the hairband which got Santa Claus up there, he said i am childish~~so bad....i remember this month we had eat so many times of steamboat~~buy from pasar malam also have, oh my god~~now i see steamboat also wanted vomit already~~uuueeekkk~~

i am very happy that he promise to bring me traveling for his holiday~~even is just a near place at Fraser Hill, but i am so exited for this!!! i am faster booking the room after we comfirm go with sally's family~~this is the first time of our over night trip~we start preparing the food for there already...

we go buy things with sally and ah kit, but majority we buy on the last minute for the fresh food~~~by the way, my lovely dear decide to buy a GPS for travel use and work use as well~it is not that expensive compare with other brand, but still is a large spending of money~but if the things is useful and worth for it, then is ok, my dear is very less buy thing for him self~

oh ya~~i buy a pair of shoes under my dear sponsor~~hhehehehe~~~is a white sport shoes, simple but nice~my dear also finally buy a casual shoes after his pirates Crocs shoes had broken for some times~~ erm~~~new year is coming, hope my dear & i will be happy for this 2011 year~~and sweet always❤

♥♥♥1st year anniversary♥♥♥

finally...it is 1year anniversary already~~on this day i had plan to have a romantic dinner with my dear but...haiz~~he eat at home while i am waiting for him to eat with me...what for if i eat alone? meaningless...even he said want accompany me to eat but just ask me simply go somewhere and eat, if like that i prefer go back home loh!!! i dont know this date is such no special for him...haiz...stupid man...

but after i cry & cry & cry...and complaining the things, he willing to fetch me to the 1st place we dating last time---ampang lookout point.♥ i remember we had long time didnt eat at here already. because last time we come with ah kit family and feel that the food is not nice anymore. but this time we go for the 1st anniversary realize that the food is nice loh~~~just the time when go with them is not nice, but every time we go both of us the food is damn nice~~hahaha^O^ so, we found that, is better go eat our-self and don bring any people go any restaurant which we found the food is nice.

although is monday, but dono why still crowded in the restaurant. my dear had take dinner so he just want had some soup but unfortunately the tong yam soup is finish so he decide to having the fishball soup with ho fun~~oh my god!is damn nice~~soooo tasty~^^ he like it so much as well as me...we almost fight for the fish ball~~^^
because of the past experience which the sizzling chicken chop is not nice anymore, i decide to order the others type of chicken chop which is grill chicken chop. this is surprising me because it is so yummy yummy~~~haha~~i order a black pepper chicken chop but dono why it mix with some carry taste, i realize that this 2sos mix together is so tasty!!♥♥i like it~

my dear self capture kong fu really bad~~my face only can see half...>.<

dear~i love u~♥
♥HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY♥

my birthday♥2010

my dear really help me much on my birthday~i know i cant stay beside him all the night~~luckily he know to take care for himself~give help to my friends also~~good boy friend!!

my friend give him a name "grace's boy friend"...♥♥♥♥love the way they call him~~hohoho....i am so busy that night until no time to bbq anything, luckily i got a VERY GOOD boyfren~~he bbq food for me, but i had no time to eat, he looks very angry because he say his chicken wings is very delicious 1~~but not nice after chicken wing getting cold...= ="

ah kit and sally is so late to come, i know dear will be very sienz~~so i keep go talk with him, but he still say i dont care him...T^T...so many friends come how can i just take care for him leh~~~aiz~but my dear say all my friends was good and nice~~~this make me feel warm and happy~~^^

i have a very good & nice bf~~help me bbq chicken wings lah, delivered table & chair for me lah....happy happy^^ why i am so lucky??hehe~~~happy 23th birthday to me!!♥

15/10/2010

today morning, my dear was telling me that the 2012 is the end of the world. He is so worry about this, haha~~cannot imagine the people always said want die die die, say life no meaning, actually is so scare of die. He always say he no long life, will be die early, and always scared me saying that he will leave the world earlier then me. But now, he say he dont want die so early, hahaha~~He some more want me to countdown for that day..=="

i dont know why the people spread this rumor, but this is not good to make the people feel fear. This will bring bad impact on human normal life. actually, i'm not frighten about die, every people will die 1day. But i'm scared the painful only. i hope that i can die without any pain. Another thing that i concern is, what i had done for my life, did i having a good life when i'm still alive. If the prediction is true, then everybody will die together, for me there was nothing to scare, because we cant change anything if there is a fact.

If it is true, but we still have 2 years to live. We cannot just sit and waiting the deadline comes to us. We still need to eat, sleep, and LIFE. i prefer to ongoing the rest of my life with happiness and joyfully. Appreciate all the things that we had. Be a good,caring and sharing people because there had nothing that we need to fight for since we had no longer life to enjoy that.

THE FACT IS, WE NEED TO TREAT EVERYDAY AS LAST DAY OF OUR LIFE, SO WE CAN APPRECIATE OUR LIFE MADE NO REGRET~~THE IMPORTANT THINGS IS, I WILL LOVE MR. YAP CHEE WOON UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE OF MY LIFE~❤

♥my birthday gift♥

my dear buy me a new camera~
【Samsung digital camera】
he specially search for me,
a dual screen camera~~
easy for me to take photo my self~~
haha~~~i'm really soOoooO happy~~
is a pink color camera~~
i know he know i really hope to have my own camera~
thanks my dear~~
muak muak muak!!!
is really surprise!
i dont know he want to buy for me~
is so surprise when he ask me like or not...
my dear is really so so love me ~~~hehe..
but my birthday still got long time la~
now just 4 oct....still got 3weeks ah~
i want him to gift me on my birthday~
so that can be meaningful...^^
i will use it to take down many photo about us...
i will use it to record my love story~
my love, my life~
thank you and love you always~❤

BBQ~♥

yesterday night, 1 Malaysia day, my dear was making a BBQ activity for me...hehe~at first i want to eat steamboat at hoi tong, but i plan to bring my brother to hoi tong next week so this week just make a BBQ first lah~

we invite few person only, sally and ah kit sure bring Jacky join us, then we ask ah loon and his wife also...by the way, we ask ah kit big sister come also since we meet her at jusco when we buy foods~~so she bring her all 3 kids come join us also~her 3children are so helpful and cute~~❤

we got a lot of foods for only few people...i really scared they cant ever finish this food~~but luckily they finish all..( some fall and some burnt...)haha~~but actually this type of activity are use to gather all the friends to reunion and having fun....the process is more important~i think most of us are happy and have fun...every thing goes good and nice~
this BBQ let i know that my dear chee woon is really 'hebat'~~he know a lot of things loh...even how to clean the fish also he know...i really had no idea about that~~>.<...erm...actually all the guys are 'hebat'...they make a fire, grill the food, cook the soup...all the people are so helping each other~

the food are nice, my dear like the 'ikan bakar'~~actually i'm not that like chicken wings, but don't know why i eat around 4 chicken wings this night~~~full till....like a pregnant lady...(actually not full also like pregnant lady liao~hehe)

really thx my dear doing such 'party' for all of us~~few people but having big fun!!! i like the A&W root beer~~~❤

holidays~❤

the first day of raya, my dear bring me to klcc for aquarium~he already said want bring me to there many times but until now he only free to bring me go~we think holiday maybe shopping will not have many people, but we are wrong loh~~too many people!!!toilet also full of people~LONG Q~even we decide to eat A&W as dinner but still need to Q up for 20minutes more~~
the aquarium was not so much people, maybe most of the people are coming for the book-fest at convention center....i see many types of aquatic animal~and some species of amphibious and insects~~the most great thing is the tunnel of under water~inside can see many types of large fish~~some of them i had never see them before~some cute, some weird, some disgusting~~the huge spider really make me feel 'geli'~~~~~~>.< some species of aquatic is so newness to me~maybe i know some of them but hasn't seen before...especially the jellyfish, i am so curious what it look like, and the sea horse, and some of them i not ever know their name~~and i see the shark~is so big!!and their face look fierce~~especially their tooth, is scary~and some of the fish i know it, but the size of them is absolutely different with the 'normal' size that i seen before~~this is call dragon fish~~sOoOo big 1 loh~~almost same length with me...(but i am short la~)haha^^...i am really enjoy the day~~
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the 2nd day of raya, we just prefer stay at home and rest...at the beginning, my dear was asking me to go cameron highland with him, but since we are getting poorer, so we leave to the next time ba~haha...and my dear was bring me to eat spicy soup as dinner~~i had long time no taste this already~is YUMMY YUMMY!! however, so unfortunately, we quarrel at the end of the dinner....just for some little matter~~haiz...but just forget about it...

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the 3rd day of raya, we are planning to watch the avatar3D for the last chance!!! because i heard munkuin said she wish to watch it also, so i plan the bring her along with evelyn's accompanied...

but at the begining, we fail to get ticket from time square, so we decide to change place--midvalley to watch the movie~~finally, we got it!!! is a nice seat, but had to wait for longer time...is okie~ we just spent time to having dinner and shopping...the movie spent time for 3hours...is so tired....but my dear was enjoy it, so is worth~~for me to seat there for 3hours~~hehe....but we back home too late...is 1am~ahahakkk....

REALLY THANKZ MY DEAR TO SPENT HIS HOLIDAY WITH ME IN THESE FEW DAYS!!!LOVE HIM ALWAYS~~❤

3D movie

today is the first time i watch 3D movie

is the first time watch 3D with my dear also

is funny~

i had enjoy it

but dont know how was him?

we got too much communication gap recently~

its really makes me get in trouble!

every girl want a boyfriend to care for them

who want a boyfriend always arguing with them?

every girls also want be happy when with boyfriend

who want fighting and quarrel every dating time?

is it the feel had change?

why everything had really change?

where is the problem actually?

him or me?

i really dont know~

i just want a boyfriend care for me

and

made me feel happy all the times

i still remember

when we first date

he tell me

whatever unhappiness in his life

also can forgot after meet me

[i can make him happy]

this is not true

because follow what he said

he always pretend happy when he was upset

even with me

hahahahaha

i dont know what am i to him

he need me for what oo??

if i cant share his things and mind

haiz~

MY RELATIONSHIP WAS MESSY!!

malacca trip~❤

yer~~~~shame shame shame..>v<

very happy because my dear bring me go trip again~~woohoo~~this time we go malacca~haha~~~it suppose is a happy trip, but at the end something happen, caused some unhappiness for me~but anyway, i still enjoyed the trip with my beloved~but the day was sooOOooOOoo hot~~~make every1 sticky sticky!!!>.<

we fail to having sateh celup as dinner, but at least we had take the chicken rice ball as lunch~~and i had buy something back from thr as well as my dear~~he bought a bb gun~and i buy lots of things, shirt lah, key chain lah, some new type beverage, sweet memories and photo~~

actually i still had many nice food havnt bring my dear to eat, so he promise me he willing to bring me go the other time that maybe only 2of us~woohoo~~i didnt buy the pineapple cake for mummy~~so i dont dare to tell her that i had go malacca yesterday~but i had bought souvenir for mummy~i wish to bring my brother go thr next time when he was back here~

because of the lack of time, we cant having dinner at malacca~~every1 was rush to going back home~~by the way, we still worry about the traffic on highway~~ so we decide to take cup mee to avoid hungry if the traffic jam~

see my dear face look so "happy"~because can eat cup mee at malacca~^^

late

why leh?
why late?
why he always late call me?
why again?
why he start no inform me after back home again?
this is the stability that he want?
why everything looks going to change?
sometime good and sometime bad...
is it i need to wait again?
guys always like to re-do the false that had done before...
why they dont ever know girls will worry??
dont he know i am waiting for him?
or else he want me dont wait anymore?
okie~~
i can find another guy to accompany me....
if he want me to do so~
i swear i can do it!!!

days by days~

is near to the opening of school...
im gonna to become busy later~
so i just enjoy my lovely holiday now with my beloved..
but i know this had create some unhappy to my family,
especially my parent~
they always complain me doesn't accompany them..
its okie~
when it is starting skul,
i will stay at home all the time~
but for them,
it is still not accompany them.
because im still chilling in room,
facing my laptop and works...
so?
whatever...
i will having the life that i want~
dont try to mess up my life~
i want to stick with my dear when im free~
i will let this relationship go longer and longer~
thanks my dear for understand me~
but please take care for yourself~
its also a help that you can do for me...^^

bagan lalang again~❤

ya~~we go bagan lalang again yo~~this time we go with more people..ah kit, sally, jacky, ah loon and his wife~~2car go...very happy~~this day is ah loon birthday actually~but my dear looks happy than him...^^

this is i take for my dear during the sunset on the lover bridge~~he look cool leh~~hahaha...he like it so much as well as me...he eat the crabs that he most like~~sure he are happy this day...
i know, no matter now or after marry, he will always love me...hehe~this is the picture he capture most beautiful for me....XD

hurt

dear's hand was get hurt~~~my heart feel hurt too...
is some kind of burn....
so terrible~
his leg was get hurt also...
is some kind of punch...
it is bengkak~~
and recently he is keep stomachache~~~
dont know what happen with him...
always here pain there pain...
i tell him before...
now is july of chinese...
kind of ghost month~
must be careful when do anything....
then when he get hurt i blame him...
because i had mention him for his safety...
but then he blame me back...
saying me still blame him when he is hurt...
if not what can i do?
i am not beside of him....
i cant put medicine for him...
and he never put it himself...
i also feel sad what~
haiz....（>.<）

my new jacket~~❤

hehe~my dear bought me new jacket~actually he want to buy the green color for himself but since got discount for 2nd piece so, he bought for me~i choose a red color 1....like it much~^^that day we go for movie, he dint take jacket along, in the cinema is damn cold~

this time we were reach earlier~because i go and buy friend gift~so we had abit free time to shopping~i saw he is looking up for a jacket on the display doll~is PDI... i knew he like it, i said i will buy for him but finally he bought back for me~~

how glad am i~~woohoo~~~muckz~love u my dear~i like it so much^^

recently

this few days i had both feeling in my heart~happy and sad...when i see my dear of cause is happy, but then when i leave him i will suddenly sad feel~~last sat i had a show at ampang, i really hope that he can come support me, but i know he is busy, he cant make it...so i dont ask for it~that day i make up so beautiful, i hope he can see it, thats why i call him immediately right after i reach pitstop because i want to meet him as soon as possible~~but when i call him he said he havnt bath, it is 11 something already,so late still dont want bath~he dono i will find him after show meh? why he always like this?haiz~~anyway, when i see him i cant show my angry, i only can show my happy face to him~because i know he will unhappy when saw my angry face~he will say i dont think for him......

before that, the friday, actually i hope that i can go his house to stay overnight, after practice dance i call him but he dint answer my call, so i just go back my house~after i finish bath only i saw he call me~~he say he care for me and he driving to pitstop to find me~i want meet him, but he seems lazy or any else reason made me feel that he wont willing to come my house and fetch me home on another morning...i think he would like me drive to his house myself then i can drive back myself so he need not wake up so early to fetch me back~or else i better stay at my own home alone~~so i just prefer to stay at home~i rather hurt myself than putting him on a bad mood~~once i keep quiet and upset on my own~~

yet today is tuesday~wat a boring day for me~~i already stay at home for 2days...mummy was not at kl now~i though i can hang out with my dear on this week~but the truth is he had his own stuff to do~he need to accompany ah kit and give him some help~even i really hope he can accompany me, but that is his bro,so what can i said? i really dont know i need to keep my bad feeling in my heart until when~i try to be a good girlfren but then i made myself suffer~~i try to stand in his point of view to thinking for him, but then who thinking for me?if i dont speak out then who will know im really feeling unwell??but if i speak out then what would happen?did he will try to thinking for me?or blame me?but 1thing i know well is, he sure will become unhappy and moody~~

but i really feel lonely when i am alone~~~when he can understand my feeling?

time square❤

yesterday my dear bring me go time square~he bought me a t-shirt~is cheap, but cute^^ i like it~dis is the 2nd shirt he bought me~~last time he got bought me a dress~~he bring me to there is for terminate the u mobile line~he is so funny~keep saying tired made me also feel tired ady~

we go eat 石好at time square~~argh~damn terrible~not nice~but i like the jay chao song at there~hehe^^ really thanks my dear~give all his time to me on every sunday which he can off day~erm... maybe he also need thanks me because every sunday i also accompany him?hehe

i so happy because he always remember to wear the rings, but me always forgot~XP...and i also like the way he try to protect me from strangers~~when in lowyat, so many guys pass beside me, and he use hand to prevent those strangers touch me~~hehe^^

yer~~my dear very cute de....muakz~love him❤

refreshing memories~

wo men yao yi bei zi zai yi qi~

today, i refreshing all the memories with my dearest chee woon~start from the 1st day i know him (but not include the days he came pitstop that i didnt mention abt him), is the day they ask for my phone number~hehe...is funny...^^

after few month, i know i like him, then i show on my blog...but the stupid people dont know i was talking abt him. i show my feeling by giving some tips on msn, but the stupid cheewoon still dont know~~really pig~~('00')

one day, he suddenly msn me say he know who i like and miss which i mention in my blog, he say he so happy~but hor, he still didn't said he got like me or not...==" only said happy... but i got save that conversation of msn...he really so cute~^^

after he know i like him, we go out few times...he bring me go dinner at ampang lookout point...this is not the 1st time i out with him, the 1st time is meet at pitstop, he bring pooyee come meet me~~

but the 2nd time we still shy shy~not much talking~is weird~haha...but sometime he look so stupid~wakakaka~~^O^ after dinner he bring me go gaigai with pooyee~i know this is the special memory for us~the 1st time we bring pooyee gaigai..^^

after that everyday i also ask him go out with me~but not only 2of us but with my friends~i worry he would not follow me hang out with my friends but he accept all the invitation~^^...he show good attitude in front of my friends~all friends like him^^

we go yakiyaki with shinya them, go 4season with my coursemate....every time also a sweet memory~i go movie with him also, ...i still remember inside the car, he try to find something to talk with me~~hahaha^^

everynight he will call me, we chat until very late around 2,3am~i know he need work another day but he just keep chatting with me~i hope i can finish the call as soon as possible but i fail because i really enjoy the time chat with him~

all this sweet memories were happen before we become couple~after become couple all this was change~big change, dont know is good or bad~got a moment i cant accept the changes~but fortunately, i had used to the change now~

after we being together still got many memory~but all this memory cant replace the memory before we being together~in this 257+ days, we had good memory as well as bad memory~but every bad memory give me lesson to growth~

i enjoy the days with him~everyday with him also is the gift that god for me~no matter happy or not, i will always appreciate the moment with cheewoon~~i am waiting for the 1st year anniversary...is 15/11/2010~^^

colors in the darkness

this few days back from jb, i just feel i am life in the darkness. even everyday hang out with friends or having some activities, but i still feel boring and lonely.

last few day, my ex was calling me. But i dont entertain him. because i know chee woon would not like me to go out with him. I really care my dear so much. same as him, maybe.

Nobody know why i felt unhappy this few days, same as i, myself, also dont know. i had try to keep myself away from others except my dear~ However, i decide to hide HERE from him to spread out my word in my world~

I really hope he can understand. I dont want to make this as a way to tell him something. because we can had the real communication ourselve. this is the way that i spread out my unhappiness and problems.

He done nothing. he didn't do anything make me unhappy. all the people was missunderstanding him. the problem is me. since i also dont know why i become like this. i just feel the sky was grey, the world was dark.

But, only when i saw him, i see the colors in the darkness. even just a few minutes.

im at jb

i am at jb now~~how was my dear life??botlot everyday??haha~~
dear, i am missing u oh...now look like everyday also argue between us...
i know u feel bad when having arguement with me...
because ur feel easy get bad when i am not listen to u..
but u know every people also have their own feeling and thinking ma~
maybe we still need more time to know more about each other...
maybe i am not the most good girl friend to suit my dear~
but i wish to try to be a more and more good girl friend...
i know he want me to support him and his dream...
haiz~~~i really unhappy for our bad communication...
why every time he also will be down after we argue something?
if no arguement then no communicate then how to know each other well?
i am really love him, but i hope we had happiness more than sadness...
what can i do to made you love me more??
what can i do to made you care??
what can i do to made you happy??
how can i enjoy this relationship?
pls dont let me feel tired....dear~

ran away

i want to run away.
i feel so tired now.
why was me?
to be the provider.
give and wait.
give heart and wait for respond.
give love and wait for his love.
give time and wait for his call.
i wonder how much was his love.
maybe love cannot count as mathematic.
but how to made me feel balance?
what is the different between like and love?
if in the case buy a shirt for another person,
give money and ask them go buy what shirt they like, is like
put afford to buy a shirt that feel they will like for them, is love
then, he like me more than love me.
i dont dare to ask anything like last time.
because it is no answer.
just like what shinya said,
if u still want to be with him, u need to bare on it.
yes, i love him so much.
until i feel i am so cheap.
i am the one who need most.
he will always tell me how i am important.
speak, on words, only.
but then, how much is the truth?
i wonder how much he know about me.
how much afford he had put on me.
how important was me for him
some people will tell me
boys does not really care this
ok than, but still got others guy i know they care this
they care everything about the one they love
i know he don like i compare others with him
so i dont want to say it out.
but the truth,
how much he do for me?
i wonder where is the place of me in his heart
i just feel he is not really love me
this is not the 1st time i had this feel
i know he will say i just keep on find trouble on him
but after this long period about 7month
i really cant feel more from him
or maybe i always ask for more
i had no sleep for 2night due on thinking this
what should i do.
i want to run away from here
keep myself back to my life.
i need time to rearrange my feel to find the better way.
so just leave me alone.

missing you

dear~long time no see u...but i know u're find, because u call me every night...we communicate every night~so even i dont meet u, but i will know how are u...i know u're tired, u're moody, u're try to made me happy~i know i know, all i know~

u know i miss u so much~~miss the feel when u beside me...the few days i cant meet u i really so sad...i want complaint but i know u working was so tired~so i just sad myself alone...i am angry to myself why i dont go find u...but i had no excuse to find u...

every night i just wait for u to call me...dear~i really miss u~~miss u miss u miss u......................❤

my lovely june~

this is the words that i always tell my dear and sms him~

after back from redang,

we got few times of arguement~

but after solve all of this problems,

i think our love had go forward abit on this road~

more and more stable onward...

i know how i miss him when i was stay at island~

but i dont know was he miss me like i miss him...

i know when i was reach kl the 1st i wish to see is him...

but the god don let us meet~

den what can i said?

haiz~

however~the power of love can overcome all this trouble~

yes, sure we can meet in the end of the days~

and i had stay at his home for the longer period,

since i become his girl friend~

is 4nights~

so sweet and happy~

maybe sometime we will had 'fighting'...

but we are still the sweetiest fighters~

these few days he got alot of problem...

i know i cant give much of help~

but i will be his supporter always~

dear~

i will be with u always~

but don make me angry ya~

if not....

i hoot u Ooooh~

wahahaha....

sadT^T

i will go redang soon liao~i really not used to go place that far from my dear~these few days i always on the low mood even go trip soon but still no much of exited feel~i just keep missing my dear, day by day~

but my dear always busy on work~i know he is so susah also~but i really need to see him, thats why i wait alone at jusco although i also dont know he will come or not...only when i see him then i will feel safe~

i know i cannot everyday also meet him~but after i go redang i will have 5days cant see him~i really hope he can go with me~i always wish to stay beside him~but i know it is impossible...he need work~i cant always dependent on him~

but, i dont wish that i can biasa without him with me~if i can used without him, then i dont know what will happen later~i hope he will always on my heart, on my mind~once i think about if he run out from my life i will feel upset and want cry...

really love him until i also dont know what can i do now...i scare i will give pressure to him~i dont wish to be beban for him...i want be independent but....what will happen if i change to independent?haiz~

anyway, need pack up my best mood to redang trip now~luckily, my dear give me many picture that can accompany along the trip~then can prevent that i for get his face~~hehe....thanks for him that last sunday had accompany me~^^

sweetiest May~❤❤❤❤❤

this may i had less time to write on my love story diary books here~because my dear always work work work............even sunday also work!!! but~is ok....i still can accept~because he go work ma....not go play2 and dump me alone~hehe...so i buy pair of ring as gift for his hardworking~( actually is me want couple ring la~hehe)

many people always envy me~because i am a xing fu woman~haha...^O^ really feeling xing fu now...because i had found the way to love...i would not same as last time...i really growth in this relationship...i really know what is love already~^^

now i not same as previous time which is always missing him for the whole day...now, i still will suddenly miss him, but just for a while...i know our relationship had stable~is good...^^ i like the feel when i see him than i will smile..is so xing fu~watching he hold my hand, look at me, kissing me, hugging me....

i really wish to marry him~be his wife~waiting for him back from work~every day also can see him~taking care for him when he is sick~sayang him when he is tired~listen to him when he is angry~looking at him when he is eating~follow his step towards my dream~

i hope we can face all the problem and have a happy ending in the end~

May~1st lovely week❤

we are sit on the end of lover bridge~but our love never end~^^
today is 1/5, labour day~friends from other state spent holiday at kl ansking me bring them to beach, so i just ask dear along to help me bring them to bagan lalang again~~



first time see dear wearing cap, not bad ma~haha....so nice~and cute~^^today the beach is full of people~damn many people lo!!!luckily my dear was here, if not sure i pengsan already~hehe..



i forget ask dear to bring our kite along, so today we had no kite to play~but today we go into the see first time~need to thx my crazy frens, playing under the big sun, silly guys~haha...


first time dear and me walk sososo far to reach the see~really damn far!!!but finally we did not waste our energy because we got step into the water~today dear buy 2cap,1for him but i wear; 1for me but he wear~haha^0^



today got many people accompany dear eat seafood but leh~all his favourite finish already~no crab, no lala...he is dissappointed loh~~but nevermind la dear~next time i will accompany u eat again~^^this 2days, i am so happy to spent with you, lovely dear~

you are my sunshiine,

my only sunshine,

you make me happy,

when sky are grey,

you never know dear,

how much i love you,

so please dont take my sunshine away~

muakzzZZz~~^*^

forth week of april

this week my dear need to work at weekend so i just celebrate dailou's birthday with smkss gang at mines~after finish celebration, i waiting for my dear to having dinner with me....AGAIN~~ccc...how can i don be fater n fater leh~haiz....hehehe

because i had take my dinner before so i am not hungry actually, but dear want eat sushi...make me eat 2nd time dinner again....FAT~~but it is happy~because can be with dear, it is always happy~^^ is so lucky that can meet frens at thr because thr is so croud of people~frens help me find the seats then only we had chance to eat sushi neh~

thanks for dear~always bring me eat something nice~^^muakz..~

third week of april

dear alway capture people fat2 photo..>.<

this week i go bagan lalang again with my dear~^^

this time i felt more happy than last time...

finally, we buy a new kite,

and this time we success to put it up,

AND take it back.......hahaha

today, we eat seafood again but this time....

EAT TOO MUCH!!

damn full until want vomite~uek~

but still happy because can spent all the day with him~

this few weeks i really felt uncomfordable..

thanks my dear who care for me..

giving me support when i am upset...

make me happy all the time~

working hard to be a good boyfriend~

love u,dear~

second week of april

ah dear a~look like ngam ngam bangun....hahaha~

this sunday is sally and edwin marriage 4th year anniversary, they ask dear and me go eat ah yat bao yu at pj which is so near my college ooo...

is a very happy night with my dear cheewoon..hoho...i saw he give me the yu chi and he don eat that...i am soso happy~hehe...even i am not really like tat yu chi la...i more hope he give me bao yu loh~~~wakakakakak.....

when i see he treat me so well then i become so touch loh~even ah kit also didnt treat sally like this~T_T~but dono after 8years will he still treat me like this leh??yer....i dont dare to think about this, because people always change follow the time er....

this dinner spent around 105 per person. yoyo...dear dompet bleed liao~~hehe...very thanks my dear treat me so nice~and thx sally also, if not she want eat then i will not able to ask for this~hehehehe.....this is my first time leh~dear, i give u my first time liao....wakakaka^O^

i love him

i love him so much~dont know why~
especially i listen to the RIVER FLOWS IN YOU...
i will felt that i really love him so much...
every time i felt i am lost from the way,
then i will listen back to river flows in you,
after that i would find back the feel when we just start this relationship...
is kinda sweet and romance~
make me miss him more and more...
even now he show his bad things,
but i still remember how good he treat me last time...
i still remember the day i fall in love with him,
how i miss him everyday and night...
what the feeling when he told me he miss me for first time...
the feeling when we having first date...
yup~i still remember all the process that we have...
i still remember all the feel from starting until now...
thats why, i love him so much~love chee woon...❤❤

first week of april

fine, i dono what happen now...i was so tired now...i felt so suffer now...why cant only happy in love?why should had some problem to face in love?

is it my fault?i always find ur bad things?only see ur bad ways? ya lo...why cant i just see ur good things?if i can be stupid then how good is it??so i will not feeling hurt when u rude on me...so i will not sad when u ignore my feeling...so i can be blind when u start change in this relationship...

why u want to know what i am thinking??then, why u did not let me know what u thinking??i just a simple girl...i just want simple thing in my life...why so hard??i just want u care for me, care for my feeling, care for my safe, care for my thinking...

then, what u want from me?feeling? safety? or thinking??i dono how to communicate with u now...i just want to go back to last time when we just start our relationship...that time u care me so much love me so much and teach me so much...

u care about me when u sent me home if i drive home alone, u say u feel happy when talk to me, u will not put ur bad mood on me because u care my feeling, u dont want to make me unhappy, u said u will try to longer the sweet period as long as u can, u say love me care me protect me...

is it i am too stupid? i believe what u telling me...i thought i am the most happy and lucky woman in the world...or am i too sensitive? maybe all the problem will be nothing if i could close my eyes and keep telling myself u love me u love me u love me, then enough??

i thought nothing can stop us from loving each others, but now seem there was some problems that not easy to settle in this way...why huh?? why u become different with last time huh?? why cant the relationship keep like last time huh?? why i easy get hurt huh?

i dont want we become like shinya and jimmy...dear~can you treat me good abit like last time?? i want back my dear that love me care me so much... that dear make me so proud of him, who make me become the most xing fu girl...

dear~u know i love u so much, right? u know i dont wish to leave u, right? u know i dont like to cry, right? but u dont know how to make me happy back, right? u feel u already care me and love me but why i still like this, right??

i am so worry about our love...how huh?? just leave me alone first...i need to be calm and think...

love march 2010-week4

haha~~my dear was drunk yesterday night lo~~lol....i think he just a little bit drunk lah~so cute~*^_^*

he call me and chat with me so many things~just like a kid~he say he miss me so much~and he also told me about his friends love problem~he tell me he scared that we will have same problem~

i dont know what can i answer him, i cant comfirm our future will not have any problem, but i will try my best to solve all the problem that we face...because i know, cheewoon love me so much~^^

yesterday his friend bday, he wish i can go with him but i am not convenient to go out~so he go with ah kit~he is so happy because he was a long tine didnt gather with this geng of friends~~

dear~i love u love u love u love u love u~~~~~^*^

chee woon's birthday^ ^

today is dearest chee woon birthday~here is the cake ah kit buy for him....

actually this day was a lot of bad things happen~dont know why would be like this~i wish to having a happy and unforgetable day for him, but i was success half only~~it was so unforgetable but only for the unfortunately stuff....especially according to him, he only would remember those bad things most the time, so i definately dont know what birthday i already give him....

i make him found me in a hard way in the middle of the night; wait me on when the sun top of the sky; let police checking him on suspection.....what a damn black birthday to him....maybe is my fault, but i still complaining~~i am a worse girlfriend actually....

his mood is bad, my mood was worse....but luckily, ah kit was giving him a supprise~they bought him a cake....maybe friends was better than me....maybe if i dont spent birthday with him could be better....then maybe he would not getting all the bad things....i bring all the bad luck and bad mood to him, but still complaining him show me his "black face"~

i am a failed girlfriend....

anyway~this year he got no happy birthday, just wishing him next year may have a happy birthday loh.........

love march 2010-week3

this tuesday i was celebrate chl birthday, 16 march....his birthday was so near with my dear~~haiz~i dono what should i buy as my dear birthday gift lo~~~headache ah!!!this is the first time my dear join my smkss geng for gathering~i know he is not used to it~but this is what my life i think he should try to join in my life as well as i join his life also~~

i know dear so tired this week because of his working stuff....i really thanks him for accompany me in this gathering at pitstop~i know he is so sayang me and always try to let me happy~but i really dont like to see him look tired or boring or what else~i dont wish to feel that because of me make dear feel cant rest even feel tired....i dont want see his face busuk2~~>.<

yesterday (wednesday) i know dear mood in bad, but i really dono why he bad mood cause he never tell me~~i dono is because his working stuff or family stuff or the computer stuff or my stuff~~i hope he could be happy all the days but i know it is difficult~it is HARD!!!!because dear easy get bad mood~~even himselve also dono why he getting bad mood..?!

tonight i had the last dancing practice for the shooting on this saturday~until so damn late till midnight~it is near 1am, i need to drive alone, somemore daddy ask me park the car at outside~i was feeling abit scared~so i ask dear accompany me to go home~i dono he just wake up from sleep~i dont ever know he is fall in sleep earlier~~

i was feeling sad when i saw his face look so tired....just feel that i am not suppose to ask him sent me back 1~~because tomorrow he still need to work~his work on this week is really make him so tired~~i also wish i can get the time to accompany him~~so far, i just feel that dear look like a baby actually~need people good care, scaring and moody when failed to find me~wish i could accompany him all the time~~

dear~after this sunday u will be elder 1year more leh~~haha....u can be a baby, but only in front of me ya!!!u are my little baby~~~muakzzzz~~~^*^

Miss u, miss u....

love march 2010-week2

now just past the second week of march~it is 14 march~white valentine....actually i plan to spent over night at my dear house on saturday...but i failed because of my parent suddenly cancel back to hometown....so i had to stay at home again~~i just thinking that if my parents did not go back hometown, then maybe they will go back next week, oh, then sounds good ma~because my dear birthday is next sunday~but everythings are not follow what i thing~my parents go back on sunday already~~haiz....haiz~~

our first white valentine are not so romantic la~just stay at his home most the time~but can be with him i felt happy enough, even this day he care about his sister computer more than me la~make me felt dissappointed only~they try to fix the pc for more than 3hours....until 9pm of the night....but whatever la, all past already~my dear bring me go pitstop for dinner~so xing fu~~cos today i spent all the meal with my dear leh~~haha....i am so easy to get hurt but also easy to get better feel if someone know me well.....dear know me well not????hehe^^

love march 2010-week1

last week i go bagan lalang with my dearest chee woon~so sweet and lovely vocation~although we argue something before and after~but i still love him forever~we have some problem on the way of our love, but by the way, we found we love each other more and more~~

this day, we built up our relationship closer and sweeter~hehe....dont know why, maybe long time didnt close with my dear make me feel unsecure in this relationship....but finally, dear prove me his love towards me....yeah~~so happy and sweet....

he bought a pair of shoes~our couple shoes~even not so special but i like them so much~~its cute....hehe...we play a kite,but it lost because of an ice-cream~~T^T.....chee woon lo....stupid....>.<....but later he bring me to walk along the beach~people said this was romantic but i dont know is it really romantic....but i am happy, so happy...

i know he is so care about me...and he is just so simple~but me always want to find something to prove to myself that he is love me....i am finding trouble to myself....people beside me all know that he is so love me but only me cant see it...starting when i become so stuborn leh?hehe... but after i heard others love story, i only knew that i am too too lucky in this road....i am so lucky that could meet my dear~i love him more than i can say~~~

"dear, is my fault, i am not suppose to suspect your love....i should be more confidence for our love~let me prove to you, i will always beside you. what i want to tell you is, i love you~"

love 10

spent time with ah kit's family...

chu 7:

dear and me go ah kit house to lou sang with them~~my soh lou dear buy 1mai that for 10 person~~but we only had 4people=="...but thx dear also~because i wish to lou sang de~~hehe....dear so sayang me~~muakzZZzzZZZzzz~~~~love u dear...^^

chu 8:
we go ampang lookout point again but this time with ah kit family also~~we go by ah kit's father de pajero...hehe...is so high oh~~~we take baby go also~~

the scenes still nice but the food was worse~~dono why last time we get the better taste then this time~~is weird.....but whatever la~the most important thing is we can go out togather lo~~hehe...i sing song for baby then become his kai ma now~~haha...i become kai ma liao!!!!hahaxxx.....dear~i wish we could have our baby also~*^^*

love 9

here is what i spent time with my dear during this CNY~~~movie and temples~~happy~~

72家租客~~it was damn funny~many situation also very funny and is so entertain me...no wonder it is so hard to get the ticket now~fortunely my dear get it earlier~~hoho....

after movie i decide to ask my dear bring me go somewhere~~erm....it is quite late already so we choose to go 天后宫at kl...

on the way up to the hill towards the temple....we can see twin tower....many car stop and capture this make the traffit jam...but i am not the 1~~keke....

dear and me go in the temple to baibai and kao chim...each of us get own chim...erm~is quite good la....hahaha....many people lo~~

another day we go dong can si at jenjalong~wah!!!many people loh~~the car park fees was rm5 ah!!!so i decide to spent more time at here,heng!!then we take dinner at the nearest restorant, bak kut teh....the temple is beautiful~many scenes~~i try to force my dear take picture again~~hoho....

my dear handsome ma~dono why he don like take picture~~haiz....

another picture force him to take de...hehe....i hope my dear will get the good luck after taking this photo ma~~^^*prosperous career*

i want 学业进步！！！hehe~~~

on the way back it was abit jam, i got some argument with my dear~he dont talk to me...T.T....okok, then i play self capture picture lo~~~heng!XPwhy got $$ on my hand de????erm....oh~~prepare for dear pass toll 1~~hehe....

lovely V pose that could make my chee woon happy~~~yeah~^^V

finally~~he want me back liao~~~i win!!!!^^