18/5/2011 Wednesday

Lazy to update the recent memories...our love life going simple and simple and simple and simple....any special is not special anymore...any sadness will be find sooner or later...
well, this is the process...from sweatiest towards the tasteless...sometime, it will still having the touching moment...or grateful happiness....but just for a moment...a minute even a second...i am sure i try my best to maintain the taste of our love...but seems to be failure sometimes...no other way to turn it back to warmest period..i thought he can shoulder all the problems...because i need his protect and care for long term...but, seems i wrong~

sometime or even many times, he fail to manage his emotion and temper~especially when facing problems...i really feel upset when i face him at this moment...even at the meanwhile,i am also in a bad mood...how? can i rely on this people?What can i do to help him solve the problems?or just let it be~~anyhow i cant help anything...

i am really not an angel for him...is all bullshit of love talk at the beginning~we are just another person in our own life...same like the others in our life...the different is only we are closer to each other compare with the others...we are not qualify enough to become full-life partner...share the happiness and thought we can share the sadness....no~~not as easy as we think...i realize, i am not mature enough in this relationship...but then i wonder will we still together at the day i become mature~~

i understand in life, we still have a lot of things that not match each other...how to polish the problems to get better communication? to get better relationship? to stabilize the love? i think i better runaway from this complicated problems...i need refresh my attitude and to seek a better life~No matter what ending will we get, i also can be tough enough to face it...i need to become stronger than yesterday, every single day~~