sweet 5

what happen tonight??it suppose is a sweet lovers night but how can thing going like this??i am upset, moody and down....but after the words u tell me, what else can let me happy again??i am happy that u bring me to movie to shopping to spend time with me to bring me go a nice cafe...but not a nice fact....when u ask me did i mention why u did not bring to that place before, i already know the answer, but i hope i am wrong...who know, i am so clever until i also hope that i am a fool, a stupid who know nothing...i did not fell jealous or envious when i heard what u answer, all i can feel is hurt...yes i feel hurt deep in my heart...how u can say this to me, dear?how u can say because of those memories that make u cant bring me thr,dear?and how u can say u really put down, dear?if so then why u cant bring me there just because of those memories, dear?did u know what my feel, dear??how can u explain,dear??what will u think if i say also i dont bring u to that place that got my memory with my EX but now is ok, then what will u feel, dear??did u will believe i really put down him before i start with u??i just feel hurt deeply....not i dont want to trust you....but i just cannot lie to myself to trust u....this is what i think in my mind...i dont dare to tell u this because i know u still got many family problem make u sad that u need to face and solve...so this secret will keep in my heart now...maybe i still not very clear the love u give me, maybe i still not confident with our love, maybe i am so care u until i lose control for my emotion, maybe this is why i still not to believe in love...love is too unexpected...i dont know what is in your mind, but what i can tell u is: if me, i will bring u to all the place that have my memories with my ex because i dont scare to thinking back this memories because i already put down, and i also wish to bring you to that place that i feel sweet with others people because that place is nice, and i also wish to create new memory with u to cover the previous memories with others...because i love u...this is also why i feel hurt...even when i heard that song u love -forever love-- at there, i feel want to cry....thats why i said i hate it....cause i cant feel the song is play for us....is not for u n me....but dear, i wish if 1 day u know all this thing from here, u would not try to explain again to me...and please dont mention back to me...i know 1 day i will forget, so please dont remind me this hurt things in my heart...