colors in the darkness

this few days back from jb, i just feel i am life in the darkness. even everyday hang out with friends or having some activities, but i still feel boring and lonely.

last few day, my ex was calling me. But i dont entertain him. because i know chee woon would not like me to go out with him. I really care my dear so much. same as him, maybe.

Nobody know why i felt unhappy this few days, same as i, myself, also dont know. i had try to keep myself away from others except my dear~ However, i decide to hide HERE from him to spread out my word in my world~

I really hope he can understand. I dont want to make this as a way to tell him something. because we can had the real communication ourselve. this is the way that i spread out my unhappiness and problems.

He done nothing. he didn't do anything make me unhappy. all the people was missunderstanding him. the problem is me. since i also dont know why i become like this. i just feel the sky was grey, the world was dark.

But, only when i saw him, i see the colors in the darkness. even just a few minutes.