ran away

i want to run away.
i feel so tired now.
why was me?
to be the provider.
give and wait.
give heart and wait for respond.
give love and wait for his love.
give time and wait for his call.
i wonder how much was his love.
maybe love cannot count as mathematic.
but how to made me feel balance?
what is the different between like and love?
if in the case buy a shirt for another person,
give money and ask them go buy what shirt they like, is like
put afford to buy a shirt that feel they will like for them, is love
then, he like me more than love me.
i dont dare to ask anything like last time.
because it is no answer.
just like what shinya said,
if u still want to be with him, u need to bare on it.
yes, i love him so much.
until i feel i am so cheap.
i am the one who need most.
he will always tell me how i am important.
speak, on words, only.
but then, how much is the truth?
i wonder how much he know about me.
how much afford he had put on me.
how important was me for him
some people will tell me
boys does not really care this
ok than, but still got others guy i know they care this
they care everything about the one they love
i know he don like i compare others with him
so i dont want to say it out.
but the truth,
how much he do for me?
i wonder where is the place of me in his heart
i just feel he is not really love me
this is not the 1st time i had this feel
i know he will say i just keep on find trouble on him
but after this long period about 7month
i really cant feel more from him
or maybe i always ask for more
i had no sleep for 2night due on thinking this
what should i do.
i want to run away from here
keep myself back to my life.
i need time to rearrange my feel to find the better way.
so just leave me alone.