secret 14

i think i now mostly always in a happy situation, made me become more and more lazy to write blog...everyday i chat and meet with cheewoon, laugh, happy everyday and night~~

he sing from another side in phone for me...using guitar~~and sang~~we chat in phone and at the same time we chat in msn also...he will tell me something that he dont tell me in phone, like he say i love u~

but even he always said he like me so much~but actually i had no confidence at all...especially when he talk abt that girl...i will suddenly become down...just now when he mention again, i feel

want cry~~so i stop this feeling by singing loud loud~~

this is 1st time i can felt so jealous...i know i had no this feel for last 2bf before...i just feel i almost lose my power already....why things become like this??this is not what i want...

i try to control something again....i don want to lose control~