secret 9

*river flows in you*
i like this song so much~
so i learn it and practice...
i like to play it even i am not so good to play...
i play it every time i miss chee woon...
until i can play this song so well now, then only i know how much i missing him..
but today, i am upset again...
friends told me they felt that he got gf...but why i cant felt it?
my heart and brain start confuse....dont know what can i do now...
i scared...very scared...because he is the 1st that i wish to be with him for whole life...
why suddenly get the bad news from my friend?
i just want to know whether he got lie on me...
i trust him so much so much and too much...
i dont know if i know he really cheat me then what can i do...
tonight ah hui will come kl...
i lose the chance to meet cheewoon again...
but maybe is a good time for me to clear something...
but i really trust him...
i am a girl dont like marry and born baby...
but this morning i suddenly got feel want to marry him and having a baby for him...
i know i am such a fool...silly....stupid...
i dont know what will happen next...but i will choose to trust him....