secret 3

tonite i cant even sleep~dont know why my brain keep recall the memory today...
i try to false myself to close my eyes and sleep~but fail...
nothing i can do so i start keep listen music...
he say got a song can make people sleep...
but the more i listen to it the more hard for me to sleep...
izit u lie to me??hehe^^
then i wake up and online start creating a new blog again...
i want to keep some secret for myself...
now i dont really post all my secret under public already...
how dare am i to speak out all my feeling...
i try to hide deep in my heart...
how special is he for me...
but as i knew more abt him,
i feel more scared about this feeling...
cause seems like i will not the 1 he need in the future...
i know so much that i wont be the 1 who he want and need...
every time listen to his thought for the future just like
an onion that can make me tears drop easily...
i dont want to hurt him...